I Wasn't Expecting That - Being Unemployed

Hello all, 

A lot has happened recently and not going to lie I have been a bit of a slacker with not keeping you guys updated but im working on it....I promise. 

So following up from my last post about "My Breast Journey" I was in my local news paper and then invited up to Manchester to be on BBC5 LIVE and It was amazing. I have a vlog coming out soon about the whole trip. I then left my job due to my back issues and got a new job in a call centre. 

That leaves us to today and this blog. I am now currently unemployed!!!! 

To some that might not mean much and to others it might be frowned upon thats why im doing this blog. I was at the Call centre for a month ( im not going to mention any names) at first it was going really well I loved the new people and friends I met, the atmosphere was fun, it was nothing like I experienced before, but thats where it all went wrong. 

I was on the phones working for a very well known house hold named company with very good commission rates but I was waking up feeling sick everyday dreading going In, crying in the toilets and feeling drained and not myself. It started taking a toll on my personal life and I had just had enough. It got to the 4th week in (3rd week actually on the phones) and I was called into a meeting because I wasn't hitting the target and it was basically a chat about do I want to be there? Is there a deeper lining or something holding me back?

Now ive always been a very timid person at work kind of letting things slide if I wasn't happy I would just plod along because its easier than coming out of my comfort zone and diving into something new. I dont know if thats my anxiety or just a trait that I have but I had to snap out of it pretty quickly when I was in that meeting because the next few weeks was riding on this moment. I then went on to basically just tell them like it is (in a nice way) and just said I wasn't happy, im a very creative person and im struggling having an office job which I found mind numbingly boring and long behold they agreed that it wasn't the right thing for me with my past work experience they knew I wasnt happy and they could feel that so I wrote my notice gave it to them and left and it was the best feeling in the world.

I felt like a huge weight had lifted and felt like I could skip all the way home. I cant even describe to you everything that was happening I was so over the top excited for what the future had to bring, proud because I finally stuck up for what I felt, scared because now I had to survive of very little money with not much choice in the matter and lost feeling like what do I do now? 

All these feelings are very common but the point im trying to make is its not to late to say you know what no! I dont want to be here, im not happy and im going to follow my dream or just find a job more suited to me. If I can do it anyone can. I am a person that has to know whats happening and when and why but now I dont have a job im still feeling that but Im more open to new experiences I can do anything I want now and the only thing holding me back is me. I can apply for a job I never thought of doing because ive got nothing to lose. Sometimes having nothing to lose is the best position you'll ever be in. 

So heres my little thing for you just stop and think to yourself if I look back in 3 years time and im still in this job am I going to be happy or disappointed? Is there something ive always dreamt of doing? whats holding me back from doing it? Im not saying "yeah go on everyone quit your jobs and see what happens" no! All im saying is do what you think will make you happy. I was on the most money Ive ever been on in a job but Im happier living of pasta and not much money to my name because I know I dont have to feel stressed all the time about going Into work. 

You spend the majority of your life in your work place so make sure it counts!!!!

If like me your currently dont have a job and your stressing out DONT WORRY!!! Everything happens for a reason and this time in your life is just setting you up for something bigger and better but for the moment its just something you need to ride out because something amazing is just around the corner. I also understand people have bills to Pay, families to feed etc and its much harder for them to jump to a new Job and if that is your case and your not happy maybe just look for something along side your job and something might fall into place 

I love you all, thank you for sticking with me while Ive been figuring some things out but big things are about to happen.

Love 

Your Megsy - x 



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